As summer approaches it's last few weeks, I am growing uneasy.
This huge decision I have made (homeschool) is looming there in front of me, and I am terrified that I'm going to fail.
I'm worried that I will completely botch it, that my kids will learn nothing, or just not enough.
The plan was to do this for only one year and then send them back to public school with all the keys and pieces that they were lacking before. But if I screw it up, then I can't send them back to public school! They could be held back because their mother was a nit-wit!
What if I can't teach them the things I think I can?
What if they go back to school next year and have no clue how to do long division or properly punctuate a sentence?
What if all we do is lay in our p.j.'s and watch reruns of Ben 10 and Gilmore Girls? Would I do that??
What if I really excel at this home teaching thing, and in the process I miss out on all things Drew and Trent?
What if the dishes are never completely done again? (Because let's face it - it's a rarity now, and I don't have the burden of two minds to educate.)
I'm just thinking of all the potential there is to fail. I'm sure that somewhere in there, there is the potential to succeed.
Or I hope there is, anyway.
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3 comments:
I hear you, believe me! And in some ways, it's probably harder for you, worrying about having them go back into public school next year, just making sure they learn all the same things this year as their peers and such. As far as the dishes, I can 100% garauntee you that the housework will go to pot completely! Just one of the sacrifices, I suppose. But I liked a homeschool blog I read that said, "If you are still doing the bulk of the housework yourself, you missed your promotion!" You didn't raise all those dogs to do your own barking, so get them to work! That's educational, too!
You'll do fine. I HIGHLY recammend following at least some sort of outline. There are dozens of programs out there and most are internet based. You need not completely invent the program all on your own. Believe in yourself, call on other's experiences to help if needed, but most importantly, JUST DO IT! Also, give Marcy a call - she has done it twice and in both instances, our children were ahead of the class when they integrated back.
Remember that you have to take big risks to get big pay offs. It might take a little getting used to, but you will do great at this. And remember also that you are never alone in these things.
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